Low on Fuel

That's right, I'm super low... I couldn't get to sleep for crap!  ugh!

First, at about 9:30 my husband asked me if there was any laundry in the washer?  This meant that he must be low on boxers.  I said yes I'll switch them over because I HATE when he takes the laundry out and my clean laundry is all over the floor and then he puts the wet in the dryer but doesn't let it dry long enough and then throws my still-wet-laundry onto my dry-clean-on-the-floor-laundry... Then the kids go in and think it's all dirty and mix in their dirty clothes it's all just a mess.

So I said I'll handle it just get together the things you need washed and I'll add to it and all that.

So, he gets me the tiniest little pile (another pet peeve of mine cause when he does his laundry he will literally wash ONE item of clothing... HELLO, wasting water and propane much?) and I put it in after I do the washer to dryer transfer.  So I put it in and ad to it and then I set the drier to dry until it's all dry... which my husband would normally just put it in for the 70 minutes or whatever and typically it's now all dry then, especially I had a big load of towels in there. 

So, I told him I'd even stay up late to make the next washer to dryer transfer cause if not he has to wake up like an hour earlier than usual and do it and go back to bed.. which of course you know you never get back to sleep the same.  So with him working and me.. well... not working, I thought it was the nice thing to do.  So I stayed awake...

finally after about an hour and a half I got up to check on the laundry...  Dry... so I folded and transferred.

Now folks, this takes us to about 1:00am or later.

Now mind you, I decided to browse some new apps for my iphone in this time I had been waiting for the dryer.  So, I finally caved in and downloaded "Angry Birds."  WORST DECISION OF MY LIFE!  Let me tell you.  Not only did I keep playing after the dryer was done drying... I COULD.NOT.STOP!  AHHHHH!  I played that damn game until 3:30 AM!   Yes, you read me right.  I got pretty far in the game though so not a total loss.

But, now I'm paying for it.  I woke up at about 8:30am.  with a headache.  still tired.  husband already gone.  kids playing at grandma's house (we live in the same yard so they wake up and go visit her).

Now I'm left with my chores for the day....  shower, straighten hair, get kids dressed, go to walmart, come home, make enchilada's, clean, go to our neighbors so Aiden & Nolyn can play with their girlfriends from school, come home and hang with our friends that are coming over tonight for new years and have dinner, put the boys to bed, attempt to keep my eyes open 'til midnight.... uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh.  Is it over yet?

Super Walmart in itself is a CHORE! 

It's now 9:36am and I'm still sitting on the couch in my PJ's with crazy hair. 

Better get started...

Thank goodness...

Christmas is over.

And even better, 2010 is almost over!

I have mixed opinions about 2010.

One of the best things of my life happened in 2010... I married my best friend and love of my life.

Also, my divorce from my ex husband was FINALLY final after years of arguing and only staying "married" to finish my foster sons adoption.

Some of the worst things of my life happened in 2010... My boss demolished the office with me inside, and fired me, all because I told him there wasn't enough money for him to steal, yes, STEAL, from the corporation at the time.  He then fired me.  He lied to unemployment.  And left me currently on disability which pays about 1/4 of the pay I was used to in a month.  We've been broke pretty much all year because of it.

My neighbors 19 year old daughter died in a car accident.

My ex husband quit paying COURT ORDERED child support and rarely ever seeing the kids.

I backed into my husbands car (sorry hun!)

My parents barely got any work all year (they own their own business and do iron work)

We were informed that Jared's grandma Dora only had 3 weeks to live.  That was about 2 weeks ago now....


To say the LEAST, I'm 100% ready for 2011!

It's already off to a great start in my opinion...

On monday I had an appointment at the preschool and we qualify for low income assistance.  What does that mean?  Nolyn can go to preschool, FREE!  Not that I don't love having my little booger home, but he was getting VERY, EXTREMELY attached to mommy.  Everytime I'd leave he'd cry.  ugh.  It's hard on my heart.  The little man LOVES being around other kids and really needed some time with kids, without his big brother.  We qualified for 5 days a week, just from 8:30am-11:30am.

This also helps with my new business venture.  I will be opening my own family child care out of my home.  Because of this we're trying to fix up the house like crazy... and on a budget at that.  I'm sure i'll be posting pictures of the improvements as they're done.  Currently my first room is the boys room.  I've moved them into the extra room.  I scrapped the popcorn ceilings down, now we're getting them ready to spray on the new texture.  My plan is to make them an amazing room!

None of our bedrooms have flooring.  We pulled up the 15+ year old carpet when we moved in (and I WAS working and making enough $ to afford new flooring) and we've been broke ever since!  I'm planning on painting the floor in the boys room I think... at least temporary.  We all have plywood subfloors right now.  not fun.

So yeah, that's most of our excitement around here.  I have 'til June (when my disability runs out) to get this daycare stuff going.  yikes.  I'm nervous!

I hope everyone had an amazing holiday!  For being broke ours was actually good because we're here and healthy and we did have enough cash to give our kids what they wanted at least, and to get each other things we *needed*.

It's raining it's pouring...

I LOVE LOVE LOVE the rain!

BUT,

Can someone PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE tell me WHY in the world it doesn't rain all morning until right when it's time to pick Aiden up from school?  grrrr!!!

Boudoir by Katie!

So, since blogger wasn't letting me post photos the other day, it looks like it'll work now... YAY!  So, here's some photos from my test boudoir party!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE how they turned out.  Of course there was a TON more than what you see here but I'm showing my favs!  

So the whole idea is that you get a group of your girlfriends together and I come to YOUR house and we do a shoot with everyone.  Kind of like a tupperware party or a passion party!  So you invite your friends and everyone pays a fee.. so if it was like 8 people, they'd each pay like $25 and you'd get yours free for being the host!  Cute idea, right?  

And everyone gets their photos edited on a CD for that price!  LOVE it!

I heart babies!

So, I wrote a huge post on saturday and yeah, my internet was SUCKING so it didn't save it and when I clicked save, GONE!  POOF!  ugh.. I was so mad.

So, after installing a new modem/router combo, and calling cox cable who still sucked, but whatever... It looks like it might be working good.  I had the new modem forever, but I hate calling cox, cause well, they suck.  So, on with it...

I did a photo session with a newborn baby on sunday.  They're friends of ours.  She is just so darn precious.  Didn't help my baby fever one bit!

I'm really excited to be pregnant.  I think mainly for my New Husbands side of the family.  Of course they weren't around for me being pregnant with Nolyn, or for when Aiden was first placed with me.  So, it's exciting.  His family REALLY wants a grandbaby.  I mean they already have the boys who of course they consider their grandkids, BUT, it's a different feeling and connection to feel the baby moving in my belly, to see one born, and to snuggle with that fresh baby smell, and watch him/her (hopefully HER) grow up from day one.  That will be a spoiled baby for sure! :D

The baby above, her dad's pretty gangster, lol, so he requested the bandana diaper cover as a must!  lol! 

I <3 this one.  So much love!

So anyways, I spent my sunday doing their shoot and then the bulk of sunday editing them cause I just love baby shoots so much I couldn't wait!

Of course the parents love them! :D  I'm so glad!  I was really excited with how some of them turned out!

Sadie Rae is a cutie patootie for sure!

First Comes Love, then comes marriage, then comes the....

...baby in the baby carriage!

well, at least we hope that's how it works, right?

I already have two children from my previous marriage, one I foster-adopted and one biological, both boys.  Now of course my new husband has taken over the Daddy role, as their "old" daddy (as they call him) thinks 10 hours a month and $150 in child support is being a dad.  Nice, huh?

So, we're almost to our 1 month of marriage mark!

Before marriage, we had discussed doing things backwards and adding a new munchkin to our clan first, but we decided to go the "right" route and give our family the big wedding they wanted and then work on kids.

It took me 2.5 years to get pregnant with my bio son.  So of course we enter this journey with worries of infertility...  And we didn't really want the kids all too far apart.  If we could get pregnant any time soon it'd be ideal.  My oldest son just started kindergarten, my youngest son will start kinder next year, so it would give me the nice along bonding time with the baby that I missed with my youngest son.

And hopefully it's a girl!  lol!  But we won't get into that!

So, this was our first month officially "trying."  I had an IUD for about 3 years which cause MAJOR heavy 5 day periods *sorry tmi* and horrible cramps and after 3 years I was more than happy to be rid of it!  It did it's job well but it was definitely time to part ways.

So thanks to my period tracker app, it's easy to track when my ovulation is and period should be expected.... all that fun stuff.  So, last week was our baby dancing time and we did well.  every other day which was what my fertility doctor had suggested when I was trying with my ex.  Plus I think EVERY day is a little over kill and tends to stress and burn you out and I think thats what causes a lot of the fights and emotional part of infertility.  Feels so much more like a chore when you HAVE to do it.  If we couldn't do it, I didn't freak and I really just enjoyed it and didn't think of it any different.

So, we shall see what comes of this month.  We've got a few months now without using protection and didn't get pregnant but we didn't go anywhere near ovulation so we stayed pretty safe.

I think maybe I'm a little more optimistic getting pregnant this time because I've gotten pregnant and stayed pregnant, so I know it's possible for me and  I think the first time it was all the unknowns!

Our family is pretty excited about the thought of a new baby... especially since the boys are FAR from babies anymore, so everyone can't wait to snuggle up with a fresh little bundle of joy!

It's official!

I'm a married woman! (again... lol)

The wedding turned out amazing!  i couldn't have imagined it being any more beautiful!  

I can't wait to get the pictures back from our photographer!  It's taking FOREVER!  It's been almost 3 weeks now and I'm so excited.  

Pretty much the only way life could get any better would be if I was 50lbs lighter and pregnant!  lol  Oh, and maybe if we had some more money but that will come too.  

More pictures later!  Just had to FINALLY update!

Picked out the Bridesmaids shoes!

Another thing off the wedding check list yay!

And here's the gorgeous shoes!

I must say, I'm overly thrilled that I don't have to wear them.  My fat butt would topple over, for sure!  lol

But they will look amazing on my girls!

We're less than 2 months away from the big day.  I really wish the money stress would go away because pretty soon there won't be a wedding!  lol!

So, did the shoes this morning and now the rest of the day is... a lazy day!  yay!

Yup, it's official, he's a fish!

Nolyn, My Almost-4-year-old has turned into a fish!

That's right, he's learning how to swim!  Although now he's so confident he scares the poop out of me, I'm so proud of him!  Aiden's still a little to chicken to really get into it, but hopefully we'll get some swim lessons this summer and he'll be good!

You can see my little water boys below! Enjoy!

My Miracle Man turned the big 0-5!

I still can't believe Aiden turned 5!

To some kids 5 is no big deal, but Aiden had a rough start.

I adopted Aiden.  I was his foster Mother (his 3rd foster mother) and got him at 3 months old.  Aiden had a rough start.  Aiden was taken away from his biological mother at birth.  He and his mother both tested positive for Crystal Meth when he was born.  He was actually born on the floor of a garage that was turned into a meth lab.  His mother didn't know she was pregnant and thought she had to poop, after going to the bathroom and nothing coming out with bad cramping she came out and told the other people present to call an ambulance, by the time the ambulance had arrived she had already given birth on the floor, so they took her and Aiden to the hospital.

When a child tests positive for drugs they are taken away from their mother immediately.    He was put into foster care, and went to two other families in our agency before we got him.  By the time he was 6 months old, his mother still hadn't completed the courts requirements to get him back (go to rehab) and her parental rights were terminated.  She tried to appeal and the state went to trial with her, which we attended.  His bio father even came out of the works for a while and requested paternity and claimed he and his extended family wanted Aiden, but when it came down to it, he never showed up for the trial.  Too little too Late, his mom decided to attend rehab a month after her deadline.  Finally right before Aiden's first birthday her appeal was denied at trial and we were officially granted permission to adopt him.

His adoption was final right before his 4th birthday.

When we got Aiden, we were told her had all kinds of "problems."  They said he was blind, they said he had digestion problems, his head was even flat in back from previous families just having him lay around and never holding him.

Miraculously we took him for all his appointments the week we got him and he did not have ONE SINGLE PROBLEM (besides the head shape, but that has fixed itself over time just from not being on it so much after we got him).  His vision has become perfect!

Of course since then throughout the almost 5 years he's been in my care, other things have come up related to the drug use during pregnancy... He has dental issues, he has very weak teeth.  Him and my bio son have always had the exact same dental care, I brush their teeth, but no matter what, he just has one problem after another.  And now we're facing some behavior issues, mainly being he's constantly hyper and never stops moving, but that's typical of half the boys his age I know.  lol

No matter what, he's my son and I love him with all my heart.  I still can't believe he's been through so much in his short life, but I'm so glad I was able to give him a better life and hopefully he'll never remember the bad stuff early on.

I do have a GIGANTIC stack of state records on his mother, on what happened, police reports, court transcripts.  All that he will be able to see when he's old enough to understand and WANTS to know what happened.

I'll leave you with some video's from his 5th birthday party on June 6th.  He has the best reactions to his presents on the first video!

Bad case of the Mondays...

I'm still baffled how I don't work, and my kids aren't in school, and yet I STILL get a case of the Mondays, EVERY monday.

Ugh...  My plan was to go to the gym every day during the week, but today's Jareds day off from work so of course I'd rather stay home with him.  Of course my kidlets wanted to go so they could go play with the kids but oh well... tomorrow! :D

Today I woke up and my hair was a mess (thanks to yesterdays pool day), my back hurt, and I couldn't stop yawning.

I think I'm gonna call it another pool day and relax.

After all the emotional drama from being depressed about wedding money and stuff... ugh.. just not in the mood.

I did sell a few things on ebay over the weekend so I need to get those shipped today so that paypal can release the money for them sooner than later.

I didn't take pictures yesterday (I'm SUCH a failure sometimes), but I did take flip videos so I'll try and get those up today.  Nolyn is so cute when he's swimming!

Moving on...

Today WILL be a good day! :D  Hope everyone else has a good one like me!

I officially declare today....

A POOL DAY!

Maybe I'll try and bust out my camera and get some new shots of the boys.  Every few months I try to do a photo shoot and get some new pictures of them to hang on the wall, but now that I'm jobless I'd like to build my skills a little more and start using my camera on a daily basis.

I'm so glad we have a pool.  Even though that too needs to be updated cause pink tile isn't really "in" these days.  And during the summer our electric bill goes through the roof.  But, our Air Conditioner is broken and our Landlord (a.k.a. my dad, has yet to fix it) so I guess if we just don't use the Air conditioner and hang out in the pool it'll be less expensive anyway.

I'm a little nervous cause SDG&E is installing "smart meters" in everyones houses in San Diego now and on the news a lot of peoples bills have gone up.  Luckily most of the people have issues with their gas portion of the bill being higher and we are rural so we have propane so hopefully we won't have an issue.  It might help us cause some months we use like nothing and our bill will be insane because they estimate it instead of reading our meter.  With the "smart" meter they won't have to come out to read them anymore.  I won't how many meter reader people will lose jobs with no more meter reading???

So anyway, yay for sunny san diego days!  All week it was cloudy so it'll be nice to jump in the pool again!  And I semi-taught Nolyn how to swim so he's so excited to get in the water again.  Aiden on the other hand got too excited with his life jacket off when Nolyn was swimming and his head went under and now he's so scared to even try.  time like that when I wish they would LISTEN to my rules... like "ONLY ONE PERSON OFF THE STAIRS WITHOUT A LIFEJACKET!" cause it's hard to rescue two boys at once!

Pictures of my munchkins yesterday

Here's my youngest.  That's his mad face.  Don't mind the hair in his face, they have mohawks and they hadn't gotten put up for the day yet.

Grrrr!

And there's that boy smile I love!

And my oldest adopted son, Aiden!  My little ball of energy.

And his mom-really-I'm-trying-to-eat-my-bananna face

5 year old love.

Aiden was running around naked since he took his bath and Jared came home and told him he needed to put some pants on so he ran off to his room and came out with pants that were short...

Aiden: mom, I put my pants on.
Me: your highwaters.
Aiden: it's ok mom, we have plenty of water.

I <3 my 5 year old!

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